When he starts working hard, after so long, to gain back people’s trust, I know he’s getting ready to take me down…..again. This normal isn’t real but I hope I’m not the only one who sees. I’m afraid. I know his patterns and this is a major shift. This isn’t going to be little. Maybe he’s trying to take advantage of someone else. There’s no way it doesn’t involve me. No way. A change is coming and I’m putting this here so I can look back and see that I felt it. That I knew. Mentioning it to anyone is pointless. No one really sees until it happens. He hates the control I’ve gained and that he can’t steal back from me. He’ll never stop trying. Never. Fuck I’m scared.