Last night I received a text, from my ex, in response to me asking if he forgot to pay child support that said, “You gonna get busy being a survivor? Or be a victim for the rest of your life.” This because I asked for the money he is suppose to give me but doesn’t want to. This is after I heard he’s been at one of the local strip clubs this week. This is after I know he is taking women out on pricey dates. This is after surviving the mind fuck he tried to ruin me with. His porn addiction gone astray to becoming a full blown sex addict. He has done things that would make your skin crawl. He wants to insult me. He likes to throw around the word victim as an insult just the way he use to call me a fucking cunt after I’d bust him doing something awful. He likes to flip it and try to insult me when he’s the one doing wrong. Not me.
If that wasn’t enough to make me scream, I received a phone call that completely blindsided me. I can’t even admit who it was about yet, because I can’t believe it. It is someone I love very much. He is losing his family because of porn. Again someone else started with porn and moved on to something much worse. Prioritizing porn and sex addiction ahead of everything. Before his family and now he, like my ex, may lose everything that makes him normal. I promise he’s not ready to face his problem. He’s saying all the right words but will he follow it up with actions? Only time will tell but I will say, I don’t think anyone knows how hard this is going to be.
There has been evidence of sexual obsession as far back as you want to look. Artists have created images of taboo sexual actions for hundreds and hundreds of years. Soon after photography entered our world so did naked photos and sexual explicit images. Stag films entered after movies were invented. Most were exclusively for men but not anymore. Women have been degrading themselves for too long. These women are someone’s daughters. All these women were once innocent little girls dreaming of fairy tale endings.
Porn is a forbidden fruit. It is easily and secretly obtained in family homes across America and every other country in our world. It is splitting apart our families. It is stealing joy and creating misery. Couple after couple after couple are not happy. This is based on unhappy sex lives. One partner has watched too many pornos and the other feels like an object and not loved. Partners are expected to be physically perfect like the plastic images on the screen. We are expected to be “Randy and Ready” for whatever, whenever without complaint. All because people have watched and obsessed about insane, unrealistic performances on screen for years. If you won’t allow someone to stretch out your asshole with a butt plug the size of a horses head while being pegged by a viagra inhanced dick, someone pinching, pulling, and assalting nipples of massive, bouncing, surgically inhanced breasts, while smacking each other’s faces, and calling each other motherfucker, whore, asshole, and dirty slut, then you may just be too boring sexually to satisfy your partner’s needs. Seriously…come on! I’m adventurous in my sexual escapades but no way in a thousand hells will I ever let someone stick a horse head butt plug in my ass people!!! All because someone, somewhere decided to ask a struggling actor to do ridiculous things on screen, making it appear normal. Now people idolize these images and performances and expect this from their partners. When partners can’t perform like this, they’re blamed for not satisfying them in the bedroom causing them to to look elsewhere. Divorces occur and our families are breaking up, causing a ripple effect of misery because no one can satisfy their sexual needs. They don’t consider their sexual needs are unrealistic and based on bullshit porn they’ve obsessed about since they first saw their first naked image. They’ve been mind fucked by the porn industry and they haven’t been fucked alone. It’s so widely available now in our internet obsessed worlds that now people can’t live normal lives. They can’t shake these images and walk around in their normal jobs with half hardies and damp panties wanting to be fucked in the break rooms by someone else’s spouse.
I’m exhausted with all this bullshit. I’m not an innocent in this either. I’ve seen. I’ve looked. BUT I’ve never obsessed. I’ve looked out of curiosity but this curiosity is how it started for the sex addicted. They allowed their minds to be seduced and conquered and now our futures are in jeopardy.
I just don’t know what we’re suppose to do to stop it. It’s out of control. If you don’t believe me understand this, people in your church, in the pew beside you, are obsessing about porn and aren’t listening to the sermon. They’re visualizing the sexual assault watched, that morning, on their cellphones as their spouse took a shower, and their children were glued to the tv. This forbidden fruit is ruining our families. Children are craving their parents attention and not getting it because currently they are the nuisance that is in the way of getting off to some porn. So these porn addicted parents act irritated and mean because this addiction has taken over their lives.
I’m sickened. I’m tired of hearing about another family lost to this. No more Christmases, no more birthdays, no more happy homes. Porn wins and we lose.
🖕🏻Fuck you porn.
You’re the gateway to hell.
The gateway to misery.