Weapon Discharged

A trigger has been pulled and released.  Now I’m left, tense, and hurting feeling past pain.  I know who I am and everyone that really knows me knows too.  Everyone knows they can come to me with anything and I’m there.  I can handle most things even if some things sting a little.  I try to look at things from others perspectives, not just my own.  I can be there for people but why does my ex think he can come to me too.  Ugh.  He never ever thinks how something affects me.  He’s such a problem.  He has triggered so many painful memories tonight because he fucking needs me.  Guess what, I am not available buddy but thanks for trying.  Now I’m all out of whack. Fucking fuckerhead!!!