Some people give a shit and some people just don’t. Don’t be careless. Pay attention to those who don’t acknowledge your pain. They will only hurt you worse.
People make mistakes but the ones who admit them, and ask for forgiveness are better than the ones who appear to be perfect but are actually cold and distant.
Be human.
Be real.
Have a heart.
🦄If Only Mommy
I spend a lot of my life thinking what were you thinking?! I think it’s because I do idiotic things based on the fact that I refuse to be negative…well at least a refuse to be that way 88.4% of he time. The rest of the time I’m Debbie Downer. I’ll blame it on menustration (& now I’ve lost any male readers I may have had 😂). So basically the majority of the time I see the future turning out ok. Obviously my rose colored glasses have been laced with MDMA and I’m reacting to that 🌈.
Today at my daughter’s soccer game I noticed 2 things. First, I am the loudest parent there. Like I’m that mom. What happened to me?!?! Second, I yell out these crazy positive things to them when they miss a goal or get scored on etc. Like I’m running around throwing glitter 🙄. One of my fellow soccer mom friends asked me if I’d be her mom because I was so positive 😂. Of course I said sure.
Most of my what the hell were you thinking time is spent on why I give so many people 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th…to infinity chances! Why? Am I a glutton for punishment? Who knows. Maybe chances never run out with me. Maybe I see something inside people that they don’t even see, or maybe I’m just an idiot. Only time will tell but until then, yes I will be your mommy 😂😂😂.
With hope, happiness, & love,
If Only Mommy❤️
Never underestimate the manipulative power of a sociopath and their lies. Don’t hold hope on thinking other people will see who they really are or see through their lies. They won’t. They will be seduced like you were.
It’s scary.
Wishlist
I’ll never stop wishing ⭐️.
Love ❤️ ~ iom
Thoughts I try to keep in front of my emotions…
Sunset on 15
Everything that has ever happened to me, painful things, I’ve had to learn from every angle. When they resurface, after I’m far into healing, it always comes through someone else. Someone I love but just in reverse. I have to learn to understand the other side. I don’t understand how this keeps happening over and over again but I can’t help but wonder…what lesson am I suppose to learn? What did I miss the first time?
Am I suppose to learn that I can have compassion for myself and for someone else doing to someone else what was done to me? It’s hard. It hurts and it opens old wounds that I’ve worked hard healing. I have a hard time just turning my back on anyone. I don’t like when it’s done to me, but sometimes I want to. Sometimes I want to run, but I can’t. I can’t desert someone I love when they’re clearly hurting. When it’s obvious they’ve lost their way. It’s evident that they need support so I must push through. I must start again and try not to let it affect me. At least not outwardly. Now it needs to be private pain because this isn’t about me.
I miss my boring married life where there were routines and patterns. I miss knowing how my days would turn out and how the nights would end. I miss being held and comforted at night. I miss being loved. I miss being touched and kissed and treasured. I miss loving too. I miss giving my love. I love to love.
How can I learn to be selfish. Learn to take care of myself and focus on my new future. How do people put their needs above everyone else’s? I don’t mean my children. Their needs will always be more important than mine but what about everyone else? I’m not built like this but leaving my needs and my self behind, last in line, isn’t going to secure my future and I have to do it alone. Relying on or needing anyone ever again isn’t going to happen. I just hope to love again.
I’m feeling lost and sad about the things I’ve been hearing about. I’m just happy that my normal is pretty solid. I’m just surrounded by so many things that are not. So many people that are hiding many, many secrets. People making huge mistakes and not caring about one another. It worries me.
We must find a better way.
I must find a better way. Happiness, love, simple joys, good conversations, passionate kisses…that’s not too much to wish for, is it?
🦄🍀🌻 iom
I can’t stop laughing. Seriously cannot stop. One of my besties just sent me a video of her 10 year old dancing to this old school jam. Pahaha!
Mistakes happen.
Time passes.
Tomorrow is never promised.
Love with all that you’ve got.
Never be afraid to say what you feel.
Do not let moments pass.
Live with abandon.
Hug your children.
Keep your family close.
Love like you mean it.
Live like you want it.
Smile.
Laugh.
Enjoy all the seconds.
Moments are what life is made of.
Never make anyone guess how you feel about them.
Don’t lose chances.
❤️
Sometimes I get tired of hearing alternative truths. 😂. I’m not really joking though. I am not one thing without admitting the other existed. It’s just not a fair comparison. If I shall be judged please don’t do it with part of the information. This has always frustrated me. If you have to deny the part that makes you feel bad and judge the part that makes you feel right then it may be time to reevaluate. I am just a person with a heart, a soul, and a purpose. Just like every other human being out there. I am all of me….never half. Let’s be honest.
Take a step back and look at yourself from a different perspective.
Then get over yourself.
I did.
Now I live.
So can you.
We all are beautiful.
We all are flawed.
Love anyway.
Be open.
Be wrong.
Find your own way.
Get lost and reset.
Life is beautiful.
Love freely without regret.
Only you do you best.
Don’t be afraid.
Be bold.
Have no regrets when you get old.
You are beautiful.
You are wise.
Shine like you’re a star.
Spin to get dizzy.
You know who you are.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
If Only Mommy 